Yesterday was a mess, I ate loads, purged and took laxatives. I get so anxious when I binge, I just want to get rid immediately.
I have a history of self harm too. Yesterday I cut, I don't even know why, I'm in a weird head space at the minute :s It probably has a lot to do with my uncle passing, its his funeral next week, I'm completely dreading it.
Oddly I seem to be comfortable when I'm on a downer, I think that's become the norm so its what I'm used to. Who knows. All I know is when I'm on a high I kinda go a bit nuts, hyper even, and I'm sure I make others around me uncomfortable because I never shut up and I behave like I'm high or something!
Anyhoo I haven't posted my weight for a while so here it is duh duh duh!! 221.6lbs
Its not good
I've missed my last couple of goals massively.
I wanted to be around 217 by now ):
9.4lbs lost in 15 days
When I see it written down I think it looks good but when you look at me and realise my body looks no different then its crap!
Keep calm and carry on
much love to all xxxx
Aw, just stay strong hun. Some loss is better than none. I believe you will get there. *hugs* I have a notebook that says Keep Calm & Smile On :D
ReplyDeleteSorry you cut my dear, I can relate to a lot of what you said so if you ever want a understanding ear then just send me a message. Keep your head up, you're doing well with the weight lose even if you can't see it in the mirror. I believe in you.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much guys, I swear you lot keep my head above water :) xxxxxx
ReplyDeleteCongrats on the weight loss! :D
ReplyDeleteYou should be so proud of yourself. I'm sure that it shows :) Just keep up the good work and it will eventually pay offf